Saturday, April 19, 2008

It wasn't meant to be

Mar 23rd:4am.I was in terrible pain.Then a gush.I jumped out of bed and went to the toilet.blood and more blood.I knew it.I was in shock for a few seconds and then i knew my baby had left me.I felt this strong sense of emptiness.All i could do was to cry.But that wouldn't change the fact.That much blood can't be good.Even if the baby survived,it wouldn't be good.I knew all tht.but still,when I went into A&E,i still hoped they'd tell me the baby was fine.

They did the scan again n wat i saw shocked me.An empty womb.When the doctor explained to me,i jus nodded,fighting back tears.As sooon as he said " u've probably miscarried" i burst out in tears.It was like all hope was lost.Everythin that i had been waiting n hopin for was gone.I had disappointed will n Shaneeta.We were all lookin forward to it.

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