good things r worth waiting.

Finally it was past 45 days.The symptoms were showing.I was nervous to do the test again.Maybe i shld wait longer,maybe i shld wait for will's birthday.Friends asked,wat the hell u waitin for-try already.

The next morning,Will bought a pregnancy kit again. This time,we decided to pray b4 doing the test.[drama x 4] i closed my eyes n waited for the result.1st i saw 1 line.Not again plzzzz.then slowly,the 2nd line.lighter than the other line but it was there!.Could it be?Then the 2 lines were about the same color.dark pink.Yes yes yes.I'm pregnant!oh goodness,my heart was singing, head spinning and heart racing.its really happening! i danced out of the bathroom and told will.HE was smiling but that was it.not the reaction i expected but he was happy.We talked abt it the whole nite.tht the bed was gonna be too small for 4 people now.What we should call the baby etc etc.Shaneeta was happy.My family was excited.My friends were thrilled.

I could not sit the whole day.I had to walk.I smsed everyone on my address book.I wanted the whole world to know.its just a great feeling and happiness has taken a new meaning for me.

1 line

I realised that putting your legs up at 30 is almost impossible although it was child's play at 25.yeap-painful best describes it.



Anyway,after all tht bittersweet attempts came the moment of truth.I was told to wait 45 days.That took forever.We were getting impatient.While waiting for the bus at T3,Will suggested i buy a pregnancy kit to check since he was so sure i was pregnant given my enormous appetite and nausea.We came out of the queue and bought it.The trip back was a quiet one.I was nervous,my heart was beating so fast.I didn't know if i wanted to do it yet.Maybe i knoew it was too soon to try.



Everything went in slow motion.From removing the kit from the pack to reading the instructions a gazillion times.Once the test was done,there were butterflies in my stomach.[drama mama x 2]

then 1 line.i kept staring at it.change-come on.plsssssss?

but no change it didn't.1 line it was.rejected and very upset.i left the bathroom with a heavy heart.it was even difficult when will was outside eagerly waiting for the good news n i had no good news.



I have a good friend to thank who listened to my failed attempt and made me see things more positively.I went home,cried it out and felt a whole lot better after that.

mission: failure

In order to get pregnant,I had to be ovulating.Due to all the stress i was going through with when i wanted the baby to be born and having second thoughts,i did not ovulate that month.Panic panic.how could i not be ovulating.I ovulate every other month.Y not now.So i told will,jus do it.we'll see what happens.We mite jus get lucky.So we made it a point to tango every alternate day.Tough i tell you.There were days i wasn't in the mood but i didn't wanna miss out in case i released an egg tht day.[so stressful rite?]

After all that,it was not successful.I got my period.I only felt numb.Didn't know how to react.Then I thought well maybe its not meant to be.Will said lets try again.

So we did.Try n try till u strike lottery.

trying to conceive at almost 30

Comin to the decision of having another child is not easy.There's so much to think about.Do i really wanna go thru this again,change diapers,wake up for feeds,clear poop,feed them,burp them,clear vomit,watch your diet,regain your figure blah blah blah.

I did think 1 child was enough.I was enjoying the freedom again.the space of having some time alone,being able to meet up with friends again and not having to pack diapers and milk powder wherever i went.

The funny thing was-all tht seemed to excite me.No really,i was truly excited to do it all again.it was like i missed that.I was so ready for it.N so the decision of having another baby was confirmed.We were thrilled.Another baby-WOW

Then came the trying to conceive part-the fun part. surfing the net,i went thru so many sites that had methods with 80% chances of conceivin a baby of a particular gender.I must say i was very tempted to try them.but its so difficult to even have our 'play time' when you have a child running in n out of your room so often n a mum who's a light sleeper. so whatever chance we got,we did the tango.heck the setting n all tht sexy lingerie.